The first thing I would like to say is that I am in no way glorifying or recommending self mutilation. With that said, the reason that I am writing about it is so we may all learn something. I don’t know if what I was trying to say comes through or not but this is from my own experience and of what I have seen from others.
This is life...
And when the day comes that my blood is spilt because of you, maybe than you will feel what I felt...
I want to bleed and if I should die from my wounds so be it. Sink that knife in good and deep until the pain begins to fade. Let the rosy red blood come pouring out, watch as it’s all washed away, hatred for myself and the world that spreads the disease that had corrupted even me. Justify the meaning of life with the blood that they made me spill. “This is not the way” they will say. There is a better ending to your story. It burns inside of me, it’s slowly killing me. I can’t take this hate, it imprisons me. Used and abused I’ll take no more of this... For the first time, I want to fade.
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Hey thanks for the add.. or following... ha, or whatever you call it. ha. =]
ReplyDeleteHa, well thank you and no problem. =] If you don't mind me asking is there anything in particular that you found interesting in my blog?
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ReplyDeleteIt's okay.. That's how he is.. I used to always hate him because he hated me.. It would just be nice to have a father figure in my life that gave a shit. But I'm not going to let him keep me from this. I'm going to keep pushing foward.
Thank you very much. I appreciate that. He just has different ideas for me. But it's not what I want in life..
ReplyDeleteFor me.. Him always saying that I'll never measure up to anything or I won't make it.. Just makes me try harder. Kinda like I want to prove him wrong.. But at the same time I don't care because I'm doing this for me not him. I don't need his support, I am capeable of doing this on my own..
But that's probablly too much information.. Sorry sweetie.