Why do feelings affect my mind in such a way that I can’t control?
It seems I can’t find my place to breathe. Life changes from day to day as new things arise and fall. I will find my place and I will stay strong. Who knows how long I will have to wait. As all the things come crashing down on me, I brace for the pain ahead...
Walking In a Life (The Beast)
Day is a torment on my heart. Night is a dream of what I can't have. The days go by like the blocks of a city street I feel no love, I feel only self hate. Stopping only to daydream of what could be, what would be, if only they had let me. Through the self inflicted haze I see a light, like hope rising from the ashes of a war torn landscape the sun warms my broken heart. But the blood that I have bled stains the pavement red that I tread leaving a trail of blood in my wake; preventing me from forgetting the past and the life that I had once led. Escaping the now blazing sun to a place that is safe. My sanctuary, the place I would even call home, a place that I hate for it is here that I feel so... alone.
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I mean it's not that I don't like talking to you or anything.. Honestly I do so very much. But I doubt you want to hear all the stuff I'm telling you about. But thanks for listening. =]
ReplyDeleteugh, i have to take a drug test tomorrow and I really don't want to.. =[
Thanks. I'm just a big talker. People can never get me to stop. =] Ha.
ReplyDeleteAnd for some reason alot of the times I prefer talking to strangers. I am a very good listener if you have anything you'd like to talk about as well. Here is my e-mail address. dana@wanzer.net =]
Could I ask you a question? Maybe in private?
Not to freak you out or anything..
About your last comment...
ReplyDeleteI know.. That's just my process. When something bad happens i freak out, write it down however I think it in my head, and re read it a few times and then I'm done freaking out. It's weird I know.. I just need to be able to see what I'm thinking in order to understand it. And then fix it. I'm already taking steps to fix what is messed up.. =]